Cannot sleep, what a pain >.<

It is already 1.35am,
And still here I am,
Sitting infront of the computer,
Playing the old computer.

Thinking of the things that have passed,
And how everything have begin to passed,
Without noticing the small changes,
And trying to accept all the changes.

There is something dat bothers me,
Something that been hurting me,
From the inside of my mind,
Playing a fool with my mind.

Oh how i wish this could end,

Dont tell me this have no end,

As i long for having a life with peace,

And able to have a rest with peace.

Is this the feeling of my guilt,

The thing that i dont dare to face,

Should i face my own guilt,

Or safe my own dam freaking face.

Odd feeling i have.... Btw my mom tell me something funny xd.... Well it all started when my sis told my mom dat i have an interest in one girl... in Indonesian language, she said "dia tertarik sama perempuan di college"

Because i tell her dat i am interested with one girl the night before xd.

And my mom misunderstood it thought i like dat girl and asked me who is dat unlucky girl ....

I just say i dont like her i just have an interest in her and we two laugh xd

Since then i have been thinking about what makes me interested in dis girl....?

Cant it be i like her.... But is like impossible xd (she is not ugly just.... no hope in both side hahahahha xd)

Well.... then my mom just told me... forget about getting those girls there and just go after one of your pet sis xd

Well dats giv me a good silence xd As almost impossible i go after them xd

Not because i dont like em... well they are my sis xd and how can u like your own sis xd

Then she say she hear the song lonely by akon which i used to hear for hours last time xd

She say is nice and suits me xd but i proudly answer I AM NOT xd

Once upon a time,

fact passed through time,

Lies here the two lords,

Who lay down their Swords.

Each came from different world,

One of them was lord of darkness,

And the other lord of brightness,

Together they vangquish that world.

Many opponents came,

Along with their challange,

But the more came,

The more failed the challenge.

With their eyes fix on the battle field,

And hands holding their weapons,

The two lords charged at the battlefield,

Fighting against all enemy weapon.

All the soldiers will hear the sound,

Before and after they marched to fight,

Till the sound of victory was sound,

The soldiers will kept on putting the fight.

When the two great armies,

exchange of fire was seen,

From each side of the armies,

Leaving nothing to be seen.

Either one side will suffer a great lost,

While the other will march on,

Destorying whats left by those who lost,

And the continue to march on.

After defending their glory for a long time,

They can finally take rest as it is time,

Where the invader give up themselves,

And find another salvation for themselves.

Thus the two lords lay down their weapons,

Along with their glory and honour,

As those battle fought with those weapons,

For the sake of glory and honour.

it have been four days,
since i go my own ways,
leaving behind a person,
A once special person,
A person once i love,
But no longer i love,
As my feelings have changed,
But hers remainned unchanged,
But, what can I do,
What should I do?
Should I stay with her,
And continue lying to her,
Lie to myself about it,
Try to forget about it?
Not that I dont try,
I really do have try,
But it seems I lost,
I cant believe I lost,
But i must accpet the fact,
That this is the fact,
A path i have chosen,
Best for me and her,
But looks that i am sellfish,
But it is not that i am sellfish,
Is just I have lost,
And a lost is a lost,
No matter how you look at it,
No way i can try to win it,
Thats why i give up,
Sorry as i give up,
On this very important fight,
Which i should have put a fight,
Till the end of my life,
The way I lead my life.

My computer display pics... it is combined along from many pictures xd
It is funny though as it looks a bit unbalanced xd

Hehhehehehe xd happy birthday to this blog xd well........ guess who i am among these dudes xd

(*hint i am the most odd among them)

This picture was taken by my friend, Stanley xd very clear xd